One of the things I have learned about PTSD is that one of the symptoms is RAGE.
I am not really sure why it happens but it comes from a really deep anger that we may not be truely aware of. We can get triggered into this RAGE and it can be very hard to stop. Some people have white outs where they experience so much RAGE they can actually injure others. Much depends on some of the events that lead to the changes in the brain that we now call PTSD.

I, myself can be pushed into expressing RAGE. And unfortunately my husband would react poorly and I could get out of control. But what happened during one occassion is when I was experiencing a RAGE with my husband some things came out, things that were so deep inside me that I didn't know I had carried these extremely angry issues. For days afterwards I felt a kind of release, and I had a lot to think about consciously because I honestly got to put words to the meaning behind my rage.

Sometimes we can experience things in our lives, especailly as children, where we have endured some kind of abuse that not only made us frightened but also extremely angry. But because we could not express our deep anger, we kind of shoved it in the back of our mind. There can be triggers that not only bring out anxiety, but also these moments of RAGE. So it is important to see if you can identify where that RAGE is coming from. Often times emotions are storred in a place that I have learned is not a place in our brain that has words that go with it. Basically it is just deep raw emotions that for some reason we had no way of truely expressing when they were experienced.

Beauflow, it is so nice that your boyfriend is so supportive, he must be a very nice person.

Notz, good for you, if you have PTSD or an anxiety disorder of some kind getting sober and good therapy can make all the difference in your personal healing process. ((((Hugs))))

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