I had a father who was emotionally abusive to me. Now as an adult I know what he told me was both untrue and just downright cruel.......but there is that bit of me that still believes the things he told me.
I know it can be really hard to trust your T and despite that "but" voice, your T will not hate you or think you are gross.
Be gentle with yourself you are not those things, that your mother said you were - Soup