I hear your fear, "What if I can't earn my living?" I share that fear, Rose. I'm 65 & am holding on for dear life to a part time job. For the past few years it seems not much time goes by at all that something doesn't happen, putting me in jeopardy yet again.

I have no insight to offer, as shezbut did. But I feel for you & send best thoughts. You clearly have much inner strength & willingness to honestly reassess--my guts say you are verging on a corner-turning. Don't ever give up on yourself.