stupid stupid stupid

today work was work i talked to my good client and the secretary of my weird client and did some analysis and did some organising for work i am going away for this weekend

and it was ok i guess my manager is slightly mad so got stuff done for her all last minute and yea. was reassured on the madness of manager by a colleague who finds it hard to work for her not ***** session but wow im not the only one that finds it full on well thats good i guess

anyway promised drinks with my gorgeous friends we had wine and pizza it was nice then i just got so

antisocial

like i couldnt go out i just could notgo party and have a normal thursday night i just thought i wud cry got to stage of dressing up hot and doing each others makeup then i just lost it had to say i was sick WHY does this happen it is SO SO dumbass i dont even know how to cope anymore

i am sick of this it may sound like NOTHING to anyone else but i cant stop crying and this isnt right

i dunno

sorry to blah on a message board. i cant go see my flatmate he will think im cracking up.

i dunno what to do