New here, and really don’t know how this works. I’ve got to get this out of my head, so here goes.

I’m SO TIRED of being lonely and alone. It’s gotten to the point where it’s actually a physical pain. I’ve completely shut myself off from my limited family (sisters) and the few friends I think I have because I can’t handle listening to them tell me how excited they are about the Holidays. Most know that I’ve been going thru another one of the dreaded med changes, and it’s not going very well. Haven’t seen the T for several months, because I’ve been seeing the doctor every 2 weeks, trying to sort out the meds. She want to go back to something that had worked for me in the past. The first attempt didn’t fare well, so, I’m titering down AGAIN, and will try another one starting in a few days.

I’m fully functioning on the outside: going to work, keeping the house clean, taking care of financial responsibilities. Taking Ativan to get through the day. But inside, I’m just a bundle of tears. Broke down in the shower this morning again.

I just need to keep my chin up, and continue to go thru the motions until we find a fix. It’s just getting really, really hard.

Thanx for listening.......