My father passed away last month, a week before my birthday. He was 65, I'm 28. I don't know how to deal with this. I don't get along with my sisters, they were always mean to me. My mom stresses me out because she herself is constantly stressed (not due to my dad's death but always been that way) because everyone else around her stresses her out easily (my dad did, my sisters do, so does her brother) and this makes her pounce on me. I am probably the only one trying to be there for her, I can't say words but I try to spend time with her, most times crushing over my priorities. Shes leaving next week to go live with my sister for 6 months. I'm sort of worried about my mom because my sister is all about her new life and her second wedding she's having... not sure if she'll have the proper support system.

I myself have absolutely no support system. I don't know what to do? (please no advice to see a therapist0-i'm in another country and I've explored that option, its just not possible). Every day is a struggle. I don't know what to do, I have never lost someone so close before, infact i've never lost anyone at all. I'm not even financially settled. I have no family. My family doesn't get me, my mom also included. I can't keep going on like this, I don't feel like doing anything at all. I've tried leaning on a couple of friends/aquaintainces, but they aren't really there for me. What should I do?

Also a guy I was seeing for a very short period but very intense (a month) prior to my dad's death, randomly disappeared on me, then gave me mixed signals, all of this with my dad passing away. Its been too stressful for me. I finally told him I'm dealing with my dad I can't deal with both, either you tell me whether you want this or no. He told me he wanted it and would come see me the next day. Well, he stood me up. No call, no text, nothing. I texted him, no response. I'm SO hurt by that as well. Made me feel like I'm nothing at all. No one cares what I'm going through, especially since i had told him i lost my father.

PLEASE, someone help.