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Old Dec 17, 2011, 05:11 PM
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Originally Posted by Severijn View Post
Why do you feel so bad on the inside?

Aren't you happy with your friends/social circle?

Or are there deeper things going? Personally I was unhappy about baggage I had from the past... bad childhood experiences I couldn't remember anymore. I don't know if that's the case with you, but you should try to find out where that unhappiness is coming from?
I spent 17 years married to what turned out to be a very mean man. Was physically isolated from all friends and family, and was made to feel that no one wanted me anyway (can you say emotional abuse?). Got out about 2-1/2 years ago, with the self-esteem of a gnat. Been working on it, but it took a long time to get that low; recovery isn't gonna be fast.

Hell, I even made it through cancer last year.

When I'm like this, I just push people away. Don't want anyone to see me like this. Force of habit, I guess.
Thanks for this!
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