I know this happens among many people who have Bipolar during their manic stage. My question is if a person is struggling with hypersexuality does it mean that they enjoy sex? I'm laying here thinking about a lot of my sexual experiences & being diagnosed with bipolar years ago, which I didn't accept because I didn't know at the time that some people can have more depression than mania.

Anyways, my T asked did I enjoy sex after me revealing that I've never been in a relationship...only had sexual relations. I told her that I didn't enjoy sex because I don't think that I do. Yet there were many of times that I initiated sex...it had even gotten to a point where I was having sex with 3 different guys at the same time of being involved with each of them w/o the other one knowing. I'm embarrassed to say that I even continued to mess around with this guy who gave me an STD. Even after knowing that I couldn't have possibly given him anything...I chose to have sex with him. He would txt & I would go. Same thing happened when I was messing with a married man & his wife was away. I'm ashamed of this also, but I kept having relations with him even knowing that it was wrong. I've even had 2 one night stands & they were both people I knew...people who I should have never ever slept with, but at that time I didn't care about that.

Everytime I had sex I would just wish it was over, but that didn't stop me from having sex even though I didn't enjoy it. I'm not sure why I put myself in those situations but I did. Thinking back to when I was younger, my hormones were out of control...I didn't think it was normal for my age. I did things to help put myself at ease & it's very embarrassing to think about or say...I've never ever told anyone about it, so I will just end it here.

Can someone shed some light on my situation? Am I suffering from hypersexuality even though I don't enjoy sex?