When my head gets too chitty chattery I often end up cupping my ears, or doing weird tics in order to try and stop them, like shrugging or stretching my neck or rotating my wrists. I think the later ones are to try and avoid the ear cupping.
I find it most embarrassing when I'm in public and do this. I try so hard to not do it. So I'm always performing tics in order to try and stop the voices.
The other night I was in my psychiatrists office and my nurse was with me and someone was putting intrusive thoughts into my head about them having an affair together. They wanted to scream it at the top of their lungs (my nurse and doctor aren't really having an affair, it was not my own thoughts, quite obviously.) And in order to get them to stop I tried cupping my ears, but then I go embarrassed over that so I just kept shrugging, and tilting my head to the side, but then I got embarrassed over that... because I know I looked stupid.
Does anyone else experience these tics? How do you stop them?
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