My husband and I have been going to marriage T and things have been going great.... that is until some old feelings that relate to abuse as a child come up for me. I THOUGHT I was DONE! with processing any and all feelings that relate to past CSA.

My question is this:
Do I seek to go back to my old T (she said the door was open if I needed to go back ........ yet a friend of mine called her to make an appt and she said she isn't taking new patients). Or do I ask my marriage T to be my T to help me process this crap that just came up (she works with individuals as well and ptsd). The weird part is both old T and marriage T have an office across the hall from one another and I feel attached to the old T while at the same time I don't ever want to see her/talk to her again. While old T helped me it was extremely painful to say goodbye to her after 3yrs of therapy and I'm not sure I could get anything more from her as a therapist. I think she took me to a great level in my life but I'm not sure what else she could do to help me on the subject of CSA. I am forever thankful for the role she filled for me and I do miss her but I feel I should look else where. Yet I miss her. At the same time it would feel awkward for me to see her if I walked out of the marriage T's office as a solo T (hope that makes sense). Am I making too much of a big deal over this??? Should I ask each T what they think or if they would feel comfortable either way ( I kind of like the marriage T and her style - she's different than old T and there's a great comfort I feel with both of them - I feel like I can connect to the marriage T as well as old T)? The marriage T said a few weeks back that I could talk to her or someone else like old T if I needed to process any more CSA (at the time I said no because I didn't think it was necessary and then bam this past week things have been coming up from out of nowhere).

What would you do?
Go back to old T or make marriage T your individual T - and feel awkward when seeing old T when coming out of the new T's office. Should I be discussing this with old T. It feels like I would be hurting old T's feelings if I chose to not go back to her. This all feels so weird!!!!