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Dec 18, 2011, 02:09 AM
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Member Since: Dec 2011
Location: East
Posts: 125
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As a child my dad, who also suffers BP, would regularly become outraged towards me for no apparent reason. I would be taken into the front room and punished and ordered to remain in the room. I could sit there for hours until he returned, usually full of sorrow. The reason I bring this up is that I suffer with agoraphobia and doorways fill me with dread, ie the front door or the backdoor. I brought this up to my Psychologist and how that if I could just force myself through the doorway I generally felt a lot better, once I had gone through and away from it....
We talked about it for some time and it was then that I recalled the punishment room and my dad's anger and how I was terrified to leave the front room and the possibility of making him more angry and all that he might do to me...It really made sense to me....This irrational fear of doorway might not be so irrational after all, maybe my inner child was still locked away in that room still terrified of being punished for no reason at all....
I know it might all seem way out there but does anyone else see where I am coming from.....
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