For the first time in my 31 years on this planet I'm scared.

I'm scared that if I ever do get out of this depression of being out of my decade long relationship... If I ever find another girl I fear I'll never trust her again. The girlfriend I had was someone I confided in and trusted and never ever thought possible she'd leave me like she did.

If one day I feel like I found another girl... would i ever be able to trust her? I just don't know if it's possible for me to trust another human being again... I fear I'm headed down a long lonely road.

The only thing I have to look forward in my life is an appointment with a psychologist on the 20th... how sad is that. It's been a bit over a month and some days i feel it's just so hard to go on anymore and I feel like I'm running out of coping resources fast. Ughhh..