I have taken it on myself to identify the emotion I am really feeling as close to the moment that it is actually happening. Well, when that emotion has me in a negative mood.

I have noticed that some of my 'tear up', 'cry it out' moments are not because I am sad but that I am angry at something happening in my life. I am not normally a violent person so I feel that when I take something I own and toss it at the couch that it is better than either tossing it at something else hard or putting that force toward somehow hurting myself.

Whether I am really angry at someone or myself in these moments I haven't quite worked out, could be both for all I know. All I know is that one of these days I should assert myself, speak my mind at the moment I feel should than just wait for it to pass and allow it to happen again.

Part of me wants to go into further details but at the same time I think I will just let it be for now. I might go into it some more later.

I read a phrase once that said, "Depression just anger without enthusiasm," and at that time it held true for me, any time I labeled my moments of feeling down as depression there almost always seemed to be anger hiding behind it, anger was the cause of my low feelings.