i don't know what to do. i have feeling hopeless and unhireable. i am awful at interpersonal relationships. i know that my childhood was overly strict and i was overly obedient. often, i do not understand interpersonal relationships - i am too critical of others and they are very critical of me.

it is so bad that i am afraid to do anything socially. i can't bring myself to send out resumes either. i don't think that i would hire me much less anyone else even though i have worked very hard over the years and achieved a lot. i've discussed it with my T but he does not seem to understand. i just sit home and mope. i have had setback after setback, both professionally and personally. i have no confidence. i don't want to try anymore. i don't think i can change. i don't think i can succeed in life. i am fearful for my life and am having trouble motivating myself to do the most simple things.