...my highs and lows are so unbelievable?

there is no answer...I also am borderline

what came first?

I am the ultimate idiot

panic
ruined life

obtuse reactive idiot

and then...

I can perform like an emotional athlete

I know all things
but I forget
I love all things
but I hate whats happening
i care but
I cannot handle caring

my utter precious EXTREMES have saved me

but from what?

it doesn't matter