I can relate. It took me nearly two years to get the minimum wage part time retail gig I have now, and they constantly threaten to fire me. It's unreal the amount of work and expertise they expect for minimum wage, and you have to always watch your back. It's hard to believe that just seven years ago I still had a good job at a living wage and an annual bonus to boot. Now, if I have this job that no one can live on and is horrible for my self-esteem and could disappear at any minute.

I know when you need a job any job seems better than no job but I'm not sure it really is. Employers are so ugly and exploitive right now.

I wonder, have you checked your state resources for handicapped people and employment? Many states have programs that will help you focus, get training, and end up with something you can handle. We have that here. My therapist keeps pushing me to apply, but I can't bring myself to do it. I feel ashamed and like I shouldn't need that.

Alternatively, maybe this just isn't the right time for you to plunge into something stressful. I don't know what the answer is, but for sure it isn't your fault. Employers expect perfection, then do nothing for you and constantly threaten.

Hang in there.