By lost in the clouds I mean memorized. Like I can't stop thinking about her. What does she do to me that makes me feel like this? Some more background info, she's working at my job place for a long time, but she recently moved over to our side of the building. So I guess it's been around 2 weeks since she's sort of been 'new'. I asked around about her and the people say she's single and desperate, whatever that means! Maybe she does this to all the guys in the office accidentally? She is quite attractive but also a little loopy in her behavior.

Fantasy thoughts I have would include thinking we're both flirting with each other or I'm having a drink with her at a bar after work etc.... Nothing sex related but more like I'm back in my 20s again and going out. Would that be like a early mid life crisis or something? I don't think those mid life crisis guys get infatuated though.

It feels like a curse or spell, it really does. That's how I can describe it if there are such things. I just need to know how I get my mind straight and end this foolishness I am putting myself thru. A therapist probably would help finding out why I feel this way. Is it an escape from the pressures at the job place? Or am I missing something at home? My wife and I are pretty happy and have a strong relationship, so I can't define anything since I'm inside looking in. Maybe I someway feel unfulfilled at home? I dont think so, but I sure do feel that way at work. Could she represent some kind of outlet for me to relieve pressures from work?

Argh......I think I'm making myself go crazy over this. But Why is what I can't figure out.