Everything you said is more or less correct...

About the depression, I take sleeping pills to help me get some sleep. I have trouble sleeping. Sometimes I drink, but not too much. Sometimes it got in the way of my work, try not to, but can't help it.

I consider myself to be secular also, that's why I don't see religion as an obstacle for me to be together. I hope if I do marry her one day this will not turn out to be a wrong decision.

Will try to find good doctors and hopefully can help me this time.

Yes doing this helps. I hope it will help people with the same issue as me also.