I know exactly how you feel, and your right it is scary! After the end of my 9 year relationship I feel sometimes that I would rather be alone forever than ever let someone else hurt me. It's hard to give someone your trust and hav them break it.. And your heart.. I would/could never hurt somebody the way I was hurt.. Don't know how people can do that. What youv gone through is severe trauma. Take recovery at your own pace. Treat each day as a new day. Take care dusty. Your hearts precious only give it away when you feel 100% ready.