Yes Perna, that is exactly what I used to do, come up with a lot solutions, often solutions that surprised others. I truely did see many things that others did not see, often taking things others discarded and presenting something useful. I had actually learned a long time ago that often my father could not service a resolve for me, would present the negetives (he thought my business idea had too much liability). I thought about what his negetive reaction was and decided to try anyway. I surprised him by my successes.

One of my biggest problems is that most people around me seem to expect me to jump out with resolve. Even I feel that I should somehow be able to do so, but this disorder I am experiencing is compromising that ability. I have been fighting tooth and nail and even trying to put aside a lot of damage and debt and work my way through it. If you go back to your struggle with your car, if there was no used car presented, and you didn't have enough credit and the gas station told you it might be expensive but they could fix your car. What if they didn't resolve your issue and actually didn't do their job right and because your not a mechanic though you do know they erred you saw them make a mistake while pulling your engine apart however they can say it was your imagination something is wrong with you. What if you tried to talk to other auto machanics and even went out of town calling around and no other mechanic wanted to help you because they didn't want to fix your original mechanics issues.
What if the other mechanics had relationships with your mechanic and they swaped parts etc and so you can't find another mechanic. You could report the mechanic to the better business bureau but it would not fix your car or serve any financial gain as well as send out a warning to other mechanics that your a liability they should ignore because you will complain if something doesn't go right?

Now you don't have a car to get to work, you cant pay your bills and even if you lease another car you just get further behind because you can't afford to lease a car and come up with enough money to pay your bills as well? Somehow this presents you with a debilitating condition and people around you simply cannot understand why Perna cant just deal and resolve the issue? Now your husband isn't supportive or trusting your decisions anymore all he does is talk nicely to the mechanic and that is only allowing the mechanic to have his way and it still is not fixing the car?

Your work is a business you created yourself and spent 20 years of your life building it. Your trying to do your best but debt is building and the mechanic has the right to draw this whole situation out for a very long time. During all this you discover that it is crippling your brain and no one understands that, including you, and as much as you try to address the issue for some reason your brain locks up and try as you might you can't seem to prevent that from occuring. No one understands you no matter how hard you try and before you know it everyone around you has now had it with the fact that you havent been able to be that superwoman you used to be?

And all this time everyone is telling you to find a new mechanic and get on with it. So you push yourself through this brain lock condition and try again only to hit the same road blocks. Your watching everything you built business wise for many years fall apart. Your husband lashes out at you every time you show signs of fatigue and he insists you should "Just get over it and this is life". And now all your family members start wispering you must be crazy because you are not just resolving this situation like all the other times you showed a capacity to go above and beyond. Oh, and the mechanic knows that you are struggling psychologically as well, that doesn't help the situation AT ALL because if your not careful he can truely turn your world upside down.

Oh and by the way, the credit card companies are calling constantly, your high credit rating is now in the toilet and none of them care about the situation you are in, they just want their money. And though you make efforts to explain your current state of issues and that now your truely struggling psychologically, no one cares.

Sigh......and the sad part is that as hard as your struggling to hold on and the financial situation is poor, you have clients that offer work and you cannot service them. And it is not something you can outsource as all that will do is allow your competitors to compromise a position you built over many years of hard work.

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