don't know all your details but I think the main problem is your PTSD ~quote Lynn P.

Yes I am discovering it is a deep culprit that is being exaserbated by the situation I am in. My therapist sees this as well and it is a struggle for both of us because it intrerrupts with my progress in treating my condition. He also gets frustrated because I am not getting the support I need from family members. I know my therapist is worried and is doing the best he can.

I actually had to step back from the legal issues because it was too much for me to deal with in my condition. My therapist has expressed concern for the fact that I have had to deal with a lot of issues this year that are making it difficult for me to progess in therapy.

It's like having two neighbors who are enemies and you're sitting on their fence....after a while you'll need to put your foot somewhere or let them solve their own problems. ~quote Lynn P.

Yes, this is a difficult area for me. I have deep gratitude for certain members here that have truely provided me with a way to get to some very difficult areas of my personal struggles. Certain members were truely supportive and never got in the way of my struggle to talk about some very difficult areas of my life that I had a real hard time discussing here, still do. I don't think I am ever going to be able to explain the depth of what that meant to me, not in words anyway. The only thing I can try to convey is I feel it is important to try to find ways for members to continue to obtain support here. No, I cannot control what others do and do not see, at least not all the time.

Sigh,,, there is always going to be that part of me that can see things others often do not see, my therapist has mentioned this to me several times as he says I am extremely intuitive and I do see a depth that others seem to miss. It has a lot to do with a survival mechanism I have developed from early childhood, I actually had to see more to survive and it is one of the reasons I am so successful in working with children. And the reason I do get upset is also due to witnessing someone who was misunderstood and abused so yes that is a troubling area for me. Yes it is a big trigger for me, something I am recently recognizing.

We cant fix something until we understand what is broken. I am learning more here than I had ever expected. I learn from anything that I find upsetting and difficult. And I have met some amazing people while being a member here at PC.

I am appreciating the feed back. And I honestly dont want to pick one member over another this is an area where I am learning how to stay supportive and neutral. I am sure I am not the only member that has struggled with this.

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