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Originally Posted by Innerzone
"Creating artificial "normal""... I can be guilty of this, but more often than not, I'm not. (After people get to know me a bit usually.) Mostly because being "normal" is not my nature. I don't even realize I'm doing it because it has always been my nature. Sometimes it amuses people (or frightens them -- I do try to avoid that), but nearly always perplexes them. "Where's she gone now? What is she on about?". The blank look, the avoidance (unpredictability unsettles them), has definitely caused pain, but I do remember a point where I had tried to fit in too much, and was miserable. It led to a conscious moment of thinking, "Yes, a lot of people have rejected me over the years because they think I'm weird, but it's who I am, and if my company is ever enjoyed it is when I'm being goofy, so I might as well just be myself. I'm odd, that's ok, and anyone who doesn't like that can just f*** off!" Works for me as well as anything else ever has. 
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Wow, you're singing my song!
I generally take the pragmatic view that anyone who doesn't want to be around me as I am probably isn't worth my time. I can't act "normal" if I try because I never have been! I was always encouraged to be my own person, even if that's a bit off-center (and then some...) I get the impression that my friends appreciate this about me - it's an endearing quality, I guess.
