I agree with val and rapunzel. I do want to add that it is totally awesome that you made a contract with your boyfriend. You have turned to someone who does want to support you in this and help you get past it. Don't let your mom take that away from you. I was wondering if your mom has some sort of mental illness or if she is an addict of some sort. Sorry if I am out of line asking but her reaction to your problem makes it sound like she has some issues of her own that have not been addressed yet. There is nothing that you can do for her but there is so much you can do for yourself and you have made a good start.
You are in my thoughts,
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft