.....the blank and distorted sunshine,,,,drifting portraits of sadness combined...the overwhelming need to feel!

amongst so much distress....?

how do I get by?...

time passes and I feel guilty because I am never ready for it,

all my actions are desperate to me....but to others....

apathetic....

I want to care..

I need something I spose...

but....

I don't care....and I hate...dislike and whatever....

to fight apathy?

I have to get angry with it!

and the irony kills me

apathy becomes my personal gift at knowing things others don't