Thanks kaliope. I know you're right, I just don't know how to walk away. I think he's probably going to make that choice for the both of us because he's tired of my neediness. I no longer serve a purpose for him, so he's throwing me away. As one poster in another forum said, my value to him is as a slave and follower, nothing more. Once I show my own need and start making demands of any kind, I am no longer useful.