Roadrunner
Im so sorry you are going thru all this.. Yes indeed I think all of are or become "lab rats" at some point .. I wish i had wonderful words of wisdom but I dont Im muddling thru my life and feeling lost myself ...

The only thing I can say is let your Pdoc know how you feel the good and the bad.. I have been that way at a few visits ... I make damn sure he knows im mad sad unhappy and tired of all the pills literally being handed out like candy .

Just know your not alone and its ok to mad about this !!

Take care of you no matter what