Hey, I need some help tonight. I have been struggling with depression for many years now, and tonight I feel like I've lost control. Part of my problem is that I can't handle my emotions in a proper manner, and tonight I found out that my fiancee has been cheating on me. I have been having a really tough time lately and this came as a huge blow. I know its so stupid to freak out about a man, but I really do love him and the pain in unbearable. For the first time in awhile, I seriously considered ending my life and cut myself just to deal with the pain. Looking back on it I know it sounds crazy and I feel so pathetic for allowing a man to have so much influence on me. He really was the only thing that I had and I just don't want to be alone tonight, I need some encouraging words. Thank you