roadrunner, I feel just awful that you are going thru this AGAIN!!

Make the best of that hour or 45 min you have with T. Throw it all at him, hopeless, angry, what ever it takes. Tell him what you just wrote here. You're tired & need something to give you hope. Hope that the future will get better.

I know you're a fighter, but they get new gloves every now & then. (If ya know what I mean). You have hung in there all these months, worked a job & came on here & given us so many words of wisdom. It's time for you to get some relief, you deserve it. We all want you better!!

Sending many, many good thoughts your way.