I have nothing useful or helpful to say but I couldn't just click past.

I am an addict also. Benzos are my thing. I've done rehab this year, and am still clean. 113 days now. 171 if not for a little boozy slip.

I have been told that benzos are the hardest thing to come off in the long term, and for any addict to downgrade to them is just plain stupid. It's asking for trouble.

The addict will abuse any substance. It doesn't matter if it's legal pain pills, or hammer. There is always something.

Chances are, if you've been in the system, you know about NA. Have a read of the NA Basic Text. Personally, I kinda think it's written about *ME* but everyone I've talked to has felt the same way.

I'm working my way through it, searching for answers. Because they aren't in the bottom of a wine bottle, or a bottle of xanax, or in a needle. I've looked, and I'm sure you have to.

All the best, I think it comes down to a commitment to Recovery, and gaining the Life Skills, and coping skills for dealing with everything, without substances. Good luck, and try

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/

*huge hugs*

xxx