(((((((((((((( squiggle ))))))))))))) first of all, huge congratulations for getting to this point. this is real progress according to my T.

The next phase, I thought, would go quickly and would not be difficult... I was so wrong... although difficult in a different way, I have to say.

i feel as if I am working more in the daylight and less in the night, in the shadows. Also I have at last learned to have a degree of confidence in my guide, so that makes things easier.

but it is SO HARD to undo the learning that was laid down in the early years. I called it "hard wiring" and T said YES, that's exactly the way to describe it. It can be done, she says. but for myself, it's so hard not to get discouraged.
Still - every try is a step forward, I'm finding it's important to keep that in mind.

I don't have big answers, just wanted to say be patient with yourself, and keep going. you are doing great.