Hey you...

I wish you weren't suffering like this, and I understand your frustration completely.

To answer the question I would let him see both the hopelessness and the anger, because the anger is all about a deeper hopelessness.

I'm being very careful here because I don't want to be triggering, but it sounds like part of your anger is about how you've done everything you can to avoid being in this position, you couldn't have done any more, so what does that say about recovering from it when it can do what it wants.

He needs to hear that because there's a danger of eventually stopping trying, and also because if experience teaches you that nothing works, the treatment that will work most likely won't be as effective (if at all). I'm a great believer in the power of the mind, especially where medicines are concerned.

Aside from all of that, you say: "THIS is what I feared coming to." What exactly is it you fear? If it's being alone at Christmas with your depression, I assure you, I'll be right here when and if you need a friend. All day. And Boxing Day.

There was something else... what was it?

Oh! You're awesome!!!