Raindropvampire! Wow, can I relate to so much you said. Been there so many times, and it sucks. I agree with Rosie23. He notices, he asks, he cares. I have BF make calls when I can't and it is a help, because not making them makes for more self-flaggelation, you know? If it's ok to ask, why did you quit your meds? (And I hope you're not beating yourself up on that too, because we've all done it.)
Please don't feel stupid writing. It's why we're all here.