I don't think anyone is what they call normal. everyone I know has some sort of up and down and mood swing from one to another.If Im Bp,and they say I am,then so are half of the people that I know.I guess Im just second guessing my diagnosis,maybe one day I will accept it but that does not mean that I have to give in to it,fighting this. How do you accept something that you don't understand?something that is ruining your life!!!I can't stand this anymore!!!Iam only 39 why do I have this dibilitating thing.I have raised 3 happy successful kids and have a great relationship with my husband but I can't hold a job for more than a year before this thing gets in the way.we are supposed to be better for the things that we go thru in life....just wondering were my better is.Do I have to accept a life of meds that make me crazy and a life of dissability?I guess that Im just having a hard time even though I was diagnosed more than ten years ago..HELP how do I accept this as my life ....its not what I pictured.