It's not stupid at all!! I know how this feels, I havent been out of the house now for about 3 weeks!!! I dont like outside, i feel like i am not in control of my safety. I worry like hell if my son goes out or my man goes out. I make all the excuses under the sun not to go out!! My home makes me feel safe and that, at the moment, is important to me. So, no, it's not stupid at all. I empathise with you totally!! Funnily enough, when its dark outside, i will go and stand on the door step and grumble at the miserable world and the evil things people do to each other!!