Sunrise everything your wrote makes complete sense and it has helped me make the decision to talk to the marriage T as a new T. I told the marriage T during the last appt with my husband that I am done with the past and CSA - so I thought . She told me she believed me but if at some point I ever thought it was an issue then she would recommend that I seek out talking to my past T or I can see her as an individual T. I'll check with her to see if her offer still stands. I think I would like to move on from the past and use the marriage T as an individual T... the bonus is she can see how my piece fits in with my marriage. A million thanks everyone! You have all given me food for thought. Now I just have to pick up the phone and call her as our next marriage counseling appt isn't for a couple of weeks (I can't sit with these feelings that long) - Gulp!!!!!!!!!