i just wanted to say thank you to ALL of you that responded to my post. i'm sorry it took me so long to get back to you, but i wanted to at least tell you that your comments really went a long way towards helping me feel better about all of this. i go tomorrow to the new gynecologist (and i'm starting to get a bit nervous), but i think ultimately it could/should be a much better arrangement. i also plan to talk to my therapist at my next session, just to make sure all the boundaries are clear and in place.

thanks again to all of you - mykidsarecool, roadtrip, mue, flooded, rockymtngal, pachy, perna, rainbow, bluemountains, stormy, tay, tree, and wowy - it means so much that you'd take the time to read my post and get back to me about it. you guys are awesome!