((( TS ))) I do not suffer from BPD but I do have PTSD AND anxiety ..as well as SAD ...LOL WHAT A MESS I AM..I have read on BPD and know abandonment is a huge issue and it is for me too but not the same way...but when I feel adandoned I know how terrible I feel so I know you must feel bad a lot and very needy..I get very needy and frustrated when I feel abandoned like with my T and all ...I keep it inside./.thats not good...but inside I am screaming and needy and wanting to grab his pant leg ..Outside I look very laid back...It suxs..so I do feel for you