Wow. I don't know what to say. I'm not sure there is anything I could say that would help. But I want you to know that I read your story, and I'm sad for you and all that you went through. I hope that H can understand. He sounds like a good guy. Do you have someone who could help you explain things to him and help him make sense of it? Like a T?

((((((((hugs)))))))))) if you want them
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