Just left T & our session was 3 hrs long. I'm grateful for her to spend so much time on me than the regular 45, 60, or 90 min appts. She even give me rides home...who's T does that? Mine does...

I'm grateful...I really am, but I feel so bad. I can't pay for her time & now she's giving me rides home. Don't think I deserve that, but she does. I still feel a bit anxious & just want to cry, but can't. I'm trying not to cut, but who knows how this night will end.

She gave me the option to call her when I need, but I will never be able to do that. So I will just try to contain myself til next Wednesday when I see her again.