Last session of the year.

I'm going to miss her, but parting from her was easy because I've already said everything I wanted to say when I worked through the possibility that she might die. If I'm prepared for her death (as far as anyone can be), then I'm prepared for a four week break.

Thinks: It's unfinished business that makes parting difficult. Things left unsaid for years can't be dealt with in one session!

We talked about a number of things, but what I remember is how good it felt to be with her. She is a very strict and powerful woman, and over the years she has taught me that I can be comfortable with that. It needn't be a threat. I don't have to fight it.

At one point I said, "The room is so full of love there hardly seems room for us."

I am left once again with the idea that T is the woman my mother wanted to be, should have been and perhaps would have been if her parents had raised her better.