Its so different than anything I've ever felt before. This is rock bottom to me.. And if it isn't I couldn't fathom what it'd feel like to be any lower. Thank god I have therapy tomorrow. I'm gonna open up more to her about how I'm feeling and see what she thinks. I'm not the best patient because I wont take medicine but I'm really considering it. Its like I just lost who I am as a person. Is this normal for anxiety and depression and stuff. I just don't get it anymore. I can't even describe it. I just want It over with. I wanna start to get better, or just get worse. I just need to feel something instead of Being at this dead end road. I feel completely lost. That doesn't even sum It up. I can't find hardly anything that describes it either. That's the hard thing. Not schizophrenic, obviously depressed and anxiety and OCD. It's a mix of all kinds of stuff. Some social anxiety. Does it all just catch up with you one day and you start feeling like this?? I remember it got really bad after I went to the hospital for fainting so maybe it's disassociation or something. I'm not sure. Thank you guys for talking to me! When it seems no one else understands at all.