My pdoc told me to stay away from stress. It seems I am doing the polar oppisite of that.

My boyfriend wants to make up an elaborate plan to lie to his family that we are driving to california to see a sick relative of mine. On the way there we're going to have car trouble and have to come back. All so that he can have two days off work. We're going to have to bunker down in our house so that no one knows we're in town. I'm deathly afraid of getting caught.

Then we're going to have to break it to his mom that we're only spending xmas eve with his family and we will be doing christmas with mine. That seems like it wouldn't be a big deal because as of now she thinks she's not going to see us at all but i have an intense fear she's going to freak out on him because his grandpa is in town.

i just want everything to go smoothly. i can barely function right now. i feel like i can't pray about this because you can't ask God to help you with a lie. i've been asking that she'll accept the whole xmas eve thing though. omg this is crazy.

so much for listening to my pdoc