hi......im having a struggle in my life and with my t. its embarressing but.....because of terrible abuse that happened in a bath tub i cant always take a shower. im beginning to process these memories and taking a shower has become impossible. i wish i could but my fear is too huge. my t is like well if you cant take a shower then we cant process these memories. but it seems if i don't process these memories then ill never be able to take a shower. i feel like such a loser. im staying away from friends and trying to be quiet around people. i can feel me going down hill but i cant seem to stop it.arggg