I'm really not coping at all. It's so close to Christmas that I feel like I will ruin such a special time for my family so I have to keep it to myself. My mum noticed I'm more in a "horrible mood" so says "for God's sake go and get your medicine!" Which reeeeally winds me up. I feel so lost and just totally totally hopeless. I feel suicidal at times, sometimes I feel like I can't trust myself to be alone. But I can't tell anyone can I!? My cpn is useless and never helps, my psych is still trying to get this prozac to work but it's just making me worse. I'm not coping. I'm failing my A Levels, I'm being horrible to everyone. :'( I just wish I could hide away forever and not have to deal with this. Why does nobody in this whole world realise how I feel? Or do they just not care? I hate the thought of people not being 100% happy with me, I can't cope holding all this in but I can't ruin everything or let people down. I'm falling apart and I don't no what to do. :'( :'( :'(