I "fake" health when I'm depressed because I don't want to burden others. I feel really uncomfortable admitting to people in real life that something is wrong, or that I'm in pain. This goes beyond depression. When I was in elementary school, I tried to convince the nurse that I simply just had had too much oatmeal for breakfast when I vomited once. Turns out I had the flu...

Also, for awhile before I was diagnosed I was in denial about the depression. I overworked myself, forced myself to do as much of my normal routine as I could. I hated myself intensely for everything I wasn't able to accomplish. I couldn't stop pretending like nothing was wrong, because that would have entailed admitting to myself that something was wrong.