My first therapist (and only one so far other than marriage T) I had for three years. I was very afraid of therapists/therapy but I knew I needed to do something to work out some things. I grew very attached to my therapist and love/loved her. I didn't get the love, care and attention I needed growing up from my mom and my T filled that roll for me while I dealt with topics that needed work.

Because I do love her ( I ended therapy with her this year after I was done with my work) I don't ever want to go back to her again (I have the option to) because the goodbye was extremely painful for me. Having said that would I do it all over again if I had a 'do over'. Most definitely. Why? Because I wouldn't be where I am in my life it wasn't for her. I would a person who would be just getting by in life emotionally and nothing more.

Embrace the feelings you have for your T and you will grow from it. Perhaps you could share with your T what you posted? I found the feelings of love for my T helped me get through the hard work while at the same time helping me heal from what I missed in the past. My T was like a mom to me but only better because she knew how to treat me while I was in her care.

Be brave you can do it!