I don't know why, but I can feel "denial" coming forward. I can't stand Denial, he gets us in sticky situations and tries to hide everything he possibly can. Which just keeps us completely standing still. He starts telling people "O I was just delusional, I don't have DID" or "I was wrong, it never existed". And no matter how much you try and convince him otherwise, he doesn't believe you. He'll tell people the abuse never took place. He'll call us liars.

I don't know if denial really just doesn't know, or whether denial is just, well, in denial or maybe even if denial is just covering up things that he knows about. I don't know. Denial creates so much turmoil in our head. He's constantly arguing with us. He never shuts up. I am afraid that denial will take completely over and it will cause another back step in our recovery.

Has anyone ever successfully stopped this from happening? Denial stops coming to the boards, sometimes he'll write in the schizophrenia boards, because he believes that our symptoms come from schizophrenia, not childhood abuse. He'll read what I'm writing here and he'll come up with some excuse. Some blatantly stupid excuse and before you can convince him that it's true, he'll be replaced with someone who can handle the truth.

I think I feel him waning a small bit since writing this. But is there any other things anyone has done to get rid of the denial alter? (If you have them??) (Okay maybe not get rid of, although that would be ideal, but to "tame")

I think the hardest part is that denial is very stubborn. He never lets us move forward with our recovery. I mean people get so confused when I'm like "I was abused". "No I wasn't, it's just made up stories". He told our psychiatrist that one day. That we made it all up, that we were just whiney babies. What is psychiatrist supposed to do, not believe him??