I obviously have some serious issues....my self respect is real low

something makes me give up sometimes

I think bad things...
I feel aweful
I dream nasty stuff
I feel twitches in my limbs
not to mention the weird feeling in my heart!
I shudder at sounds
I expect everyone hates me
I can't even look at myself
I panic
I hold on tight to something simple
my flashbacks are absurd and painful

I know this is happening for a reason

something has upset me I guess...

but I am sure glad this bender is just about over..!

I physically cannot take out my worries on me with alcohol
for much longer

I tried to make myself feel better from something upsetting

I reckon I have achieved my goal...

but the cost!

on me..?

thank God....life is forgiving