AmandaLouise -unless of course there is still a reason to hide your disorders from those outside you and your system, which may be the answer to why this alter persists on doing their job of denying everything to protect you all.

Cammie- that someone has denied you either that diagnosis...or worse someone else has denied any or part of your abuse happened...

Yea that makes sense. I don't really feel safe revealing it to anyone. Back in March someone told my pdoc about us, he told us DID didn't exist. (we had been diagnosed prior, but we covered up medical records for years). Although I don't remember the conversation, I just read it in my journal, so someone could have been being dramatic. Recently we (and the therapist) retold him and he said he couldn't rule it out. But I still feel the need to cover it up for him. Or that I'm just taking it very slowly. He comes with an entire team that I don't want to freak out. Nurses, caseworkers, my old therapist, who told me it just wasn't possible for my to have DID, when I told him back in March. I think he was upset he spent 3 years working and responding to many, and never realized it. He has a lot of issues.

Basically I talk about it openly with my current therapist. I refuse to tell my family. My family isn't incredibly close and half of them call me crazy to begin with. I have one friend who knows. I could probably tell my one brother, but he would naively tell the entire family, which would land me back to being crazy. And I've worked hard to get rid of that stigma.

But this makes it even harder that people don't believe me. Or don't believe in DID period, because when that alter strikes nobody knows what's going on. They're like "is she really just delusional". Nobody around me, aside from my therapist has any knowledge on the disorder.

What makes it harder is that my team dealt with a girl, who appeared to have DID. I was questioning my DID, because she was like the movie Sybil, 24/7. Nothing tried to cover it. She would freak out, wriggle on the floor, start talking in deep voices and tell everybody she had multiple personality. I was nothing like that, so it was a main contributor to why I covered up medical records for years, because I figured that's what DID was like and I wasn't like that. Well it turned out she didn't have it. She had severe borderline and used the multiple personalities for attention. So now my team is extra cautious in believing DID. Which I understand. I would be too.