....I cruise....ya know!

do my thing...

and YET I have STRESS unbelievable?

it's emotional and it's mine and it nearly kills me when it hits....

it's like I get around in this dreamland of some desperate distraction.

BUT ....now and then....I get triggered and fall victim to some event or person or damage I am un aware of.

something bad enough for me stuffed me somewhat...

in the meantime I have found ways to cope...

but a SIGNAL from the original MESS ...

turns me upside down

it's beyond my imagination....

but I must use it to cope